Beautiful Child

It is hard to believe that it will be 2 months since our Busy Lizzy left, It just doesn't feel right. I think about her everyday, cry everyday. I even went to the cemetery the other day with my youngest son after we did some shopping. One of my missions was to find green Lizzy Beads (we call them that but you get them at the craft store, or like me I got them at Wal-Mart) Anyway I found the beautiful green gems to put into the vase that they have at her grave site......I fixed her flowers up, I bought some more to add to the one's that Holly had added first. So I added mine then I put a mini-birdhouse skateboard sticking out of the Styrofoam. And added the green Lizzy Beads since green was her favorite color (and mine as well) Anyway it gets harder and harder to visit her, I just can't believe she is buried under all of that marble. I miss her like crazy and there is nothing that I can say or do to bring her back. And I keep thinking WHY us? WHY her? She didn't do anything to deserve this. She was a 10 year old little girl who loved the outdoors, soccer, skateboarding and playing with her best friend Thomas. She was bullied at school because she was a tomboy and just before she passed away she had started to become really good friends with one of the girls that bullied her...........She even called to talk to our older daughter today. I don't know what she wanted. But I do know that she typed out a letter to Elizabeth and us and placed it on her casket.............It was a heart wrenching letter. Elizabeth taught her many things it said , one of them might have been not to bully anymore? I don't know........I am just so proud of Elizabeth and I can't tell her and I can't tell her how much I love her. I can't do the snug as a bug in a rug thing anymore, yeah she was 10 but we still did it sometimes. All I can do is to look at pictures of her and wish how much that she was here.........Her little brother told me today. He is 5 keep in mind. "Mom, do you have another baby in your tummy?" I then said No, why?? "Because you need another Elizabeth" "You won't be sad anymore if you have another Elizabeth" So he notices more than I think I suppose........I am tired and will dream of Lizzy tonight or hope to. Below is a picture of her headstone, she is buried with her great grandmother and great grandfather, their headstone is the one above hers............To The Moon And Back Lizzy